Hello fellow writers and readers! Imagine an over-caffeinated, highly anxious author with fingers curled into claws above the keyboard. Now add sub-zero temperature, chattering teeth and ice dripping off her body. That's me!
I'm halfway through my book, my story is plotted out to the final scenes and my characters are familiar and coming together. I made some changes in the sequence of events and tweaked the conflicts both internally and externally so I'm actually in good shape as far as my liking the story. Some scenes are polished, some rough and a few not even created yet. I'm not in horrible shape. So why am I putting off another run through? I should be excited to flesh out scenes and watch the story develop.
Many thought are going through my head right now as I try to analyze myself (this could take a long time but I promise not to drag you along). One is the fear I won't be able to complete the story. I'm biting my nails thinking of the scenes I need to perfect. Hmmm. Perfect is a pretty strong word. Anyone faced with achieving such a high level of accomplishment would freeze. I can't be alone in this. My head is hurting at this point but I delve a little deeper...beyond creating the scenes, making them sound good and perfecting the plot flow I have to work quickly. Okay, this time I actually pictured a racing train grinding to a neck-snapping halt. Sparks and all. I just found the other inhibitor to writing my story. Pressure to work quickly and get the book to my publisher before anymore time lapses. It's a vicious cycle and adding stress to move faster is only making me procrastinate more. Sometimes I really hate how my mind works!
So, esteemed authors and readers what are your thoughts on these self-imposed pressures? Can you help me get out of the deep freeze I'm in and give my characters the story they deserve? I would love to hear your advice and experiences in this area.